Rear View Mirror

My life has always consisted of triumphs and failures, and I attribute those failures to a lack of following through. I've spent my whole life fooling myself into believing I am brilliant and I know better than most. Really, I just float through every day waiting for something exciting or new to happen so I can be a part of  what someone else has already claimed their happiness upon. Christmas time is my least favorite holiday, and it is not to say I do not enjoy the family gatherings, tinsel, and cookies because I do. I feel a disconnect around this time every year. A disconnect from what real people experience and how much I miss out on. I'm not a depressed person, quite the opposite actually. I struggle with knowing when its time to quit searching for the good in people and when to not wear my emotions on my sleeve(because my words in the past have been weapons). Hah, as Carl would say, 'you are hypersensitive' with a flare for the 'extreme'. For those of you who do not know, Carl is my Dad and he's unlike anyone in this world (He's callous, crude, brilliant, sensitive, courageous, hilarious, and mine). This blog is my new year's challenge. Since I never follow through with things that have extreme potential, this is where I lay my path to success. This will patch the disconnect. This blog will show my art, music selections of the week, my adventures with my best friends and family, and the inner workings of one extremist. Here goes nothing 3,2,1... IT WAS THE MERLOT!